Decisions/Stress

Funny how stressful decision making can be. Should I or Not? You make a decision and feel good about having done so and then you begin doubting your decision and it starts all over again.

My daughter's hubby retired from the military last year and began looking for a new career. He found one on the other side of the world. Actually, it was only the east coast. As I had spent the last 15 years "being there" for my daughter and grandchildren while hubby was out to sea I ASSUMED that I would still be a big part of their lives. NOT! Bye Bye and "Oh , will you care for our home until it sells? " Of course, feeling needed. It only took 5 months. I was glad I lived only 12 miles away so when the sprinklers went wild I could jump in my car and take care of the problem. Even when there was a problem with too much rain and standing water I could just wade in there and set up the sump pump. Glad to do it for my family. All I needed was a cape with a big SUPER GMA on it.

Their new house is huge and has a wonderful basement with full bathroom and a private entrance. I had hoped I would be allowed to continue my service to my family and reside in the basement. I even offered to pay $600 per month to do so. NOT. My granddaughtes love me too much and my son in law is jealouse and soooooo it ain't happin.

So my daughter is caught in the middle which is not a pleasant place to be. She began sending ads for "room for rent" in her vacinity. That's where we are now. Selling everything i own, which is not much , but it is kinda sad. Not to mention that I have two children and 6 grandchildren close by that I will be leaving behind! I love them very much but they haven't needed me or spent time with me like my move away daughter. I mean we have history together!!! What's a mom to do??