Thursday, May 31, 2007
Where in the hell did it go?
I wrote the greatest blog and I made one teeny weeny mistake and it disappeared! I tried to find it and cannot so I am gonna have a glass of wine and watch tv. It was all about my fellow RVers stuck in this God forsaken RV park in So Cal where drinkin beer is the major sport. I do clean up on recyling!! I am gonna submit this before it goes away.
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Decisions/Stress
Funny how stressful decision making can be. Should I or Not? You make a decision and feel good about having done so and then you begin doubting your decision and it starts all over again.
My daughter's hubby retired from the military last year and began looking for a new career. He found one on the other side of the world. Actually, it was only the east coast. As I had spent the last 15 years "being there" for my daughter and grandchildren while hubby was out to sea I ASSUMED that I would still be a big part of their lives. NOT! Bye Bye and "Oh , will you care for our home until it sells? " Of course, feeling needed. It only took 5 months. I was glad I lived only 12 miles away so when the sprinklers went wild I could jump in my car and take care of the problem. Even when there was a problem with too much rain and standing water I could just wade in there and set up the sump pump. Glad to do it for my family. All I needed was a cape with a big SUPER GMA on it.
Their new house is huge and has a wonderful basement with full bathroom and a private entrance. I had hoped I would be allowed to continue my service to my family and reside in the basement. I even offered to pay $600 per month to do so. NOT. My granddaughtes love me too much and my son in law is jealouse and soooooo it ain't happin.
So my daughter is caught in the middle which is not a pleasant place to be. She began sending ads for "room for rent" in her vacinity. That's where we are now. Selling everything i own, which is not much , but it is kinda sad. Not to mention that I have two children and 6 grandchildren close by that I will be leaving behind! I love them very much but they haven't needed me or spent time with me like my move away daughter. I mean we have history together!!! What's a mom to do??
My daughter's hubby retired from the military last year and began looking for a new career. He found one on the other side of the world. Actually, it was only the east coast. As I had spent the last 15 years "being there" for my daughter and grandchildren while hubby was out to sea I ASSUMED that I would still be a big part of their lives. NOT! Bye Bye and "Oh , will you care for our home until it sells? " Of course, feeling needed. It only took 5 months. I was glad I lived only 12 miles away so when the sprinklers went wild I could jump in my car and take care of the problem. Even when there was a problem with too much rain and standing water I could just wade in there and set up the sump pump. Glad to do it for my family. All I needed was a cape with a big SUPER GMA on it.
Their new house is huge and has a wonderful basement with full bathroom and a private entrance. I had hoped I would be allowed to continue my service to my family and reside in the basement. I even offered to pay $600 per month to do so. NOT. My granddaughtes love me too much and my son in law is jealouse and soooooo it ain't happin.
So my daughter is caught in the middle which is not a pleasant place to be. She began sending ads for "room for rent" in her vacinity. That's where we are now. Selling everything i own, which is not much , but it is kinda sad. Not to mention that I have two children and 6 grandchildren close by that I will be leaving behind! I love them very much but they haven't needed me or spent time with me like my move away daughter. I mean we have history together!!! What's a mom to do??
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Whew!!
I have been searching for blogs that help me answer some of the many questions I have about life. My search has left me wanting. I think it's because I just want to spill my guts about things that piss me off . So I started my own blog. I read The Life of Riley which is a blog by a 107
year old woman. Boring! Amazing that she is still alive and kickin but ....
Being a senior citizen sucks! I still feel like a spring chicken and except for a few place on my body could pass for one ...in the dark....after a few drinks More on that later.
What I am really confused about is how can you be so needed one day and cut loose the next?? I think that is my major problem. I put myself in that position all my life and when people do not need you anymore, that's it and you find someone else who needs help. yes, I know, help yourself. But what if you never knew how to do that?
I was the greatest gramma to my kids kids. They loved me so much! Now, the youngest is 13 and can't see me for the trees. Which I understand how she feels, but what about my feelings? I know, Volounteer. Not yet.
I am planning to follow the ones that left me across the US and be there in case they need me. Well, I am using that excuse anyway. I really want to see and experience living on the east coast as I have worn out my welcome here on the west coast. So I am killing 2 birds with one stone.
Selling everything you have in your front yard is quite an experience. The rest will be donated to a worthy cause. My cat and I will jump in my small suv (car) and begin Gma and Emily's Great Adventure. And believe me I have reservations!
year old woman. Boring! Amazing that she is still alive and kickin but ....
Being a senior citizen sucks! I still feel like a spring chicken and except for a few place on my body could pass for one ...in the dark....after a few drinks More on that later.
What I am really confused about is how can you be so needed one day and cut loose the next?? I think that is my major problem. I put myself in that position all my life and when people do not need you anymore, that's it and you find someone else who needs help. yes, I know, help yourself. But what if you never knew how to do that?
I was the greatest gramma to my kids kids. They loved me so much! Now, the youngest is 13 and can't see me for the trees. Which I understand how she feels, but what about my feelings? I know, Volounteer. Not yet.
I am planning to follow the ones that left me across the US and be there in case they need me. Well, I am using that excuse anyway. I really want to see and experience living on the east coast as I have worn out my welcome here on the west coast. So I am killing 2 birds with one stone.
Selling everything you have in your front yard is quite an experience. The rest will be donated to a worthy cause. My cat and I will jump in my small suv (car) and begin Gma and Emily's Great Adventure. And believe me I have reservations!
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