Comments!!!

I got comments!! It feels like I am really doin it. Just another milestone in my life. I am so very proud of my every little accomplishment. If I don't appreciate myself, who will?

Yesterday I got lost twice in my own home town!! I forgive myself. I forgot the #1 rule: Pay Attention!!!

Six days and a wake up before flying to VA on a prearrange vacation. I am accompanying a friend of my granddaughter so could not gracefully cancel. I can use the time there to tie up some loose ends.

When I return it will be "dump and run". But I must remain calm and Pay Attention. This a very big step in my life and I am very excited and capable. I wanted to blog all the way so you all could enjoy along with me and maybe even laugh with me. I bought a thingy to provide power for my laptop, I can't always pick up wireless while on the road. Any ideas would be appreciated.

OMG, a whole new chapter in my life. Just breathe........

Learning to blog ain't ez for an old woman

Hello again! I have been trying, and I finally suceeded, in finding my own blog! Oh, I had it on my favorites, but wanted other people to read it also.

I read that I had to have a "site feed"?? in order to be found. I tried to accomplish that, I am not sure I did, and I actually found my blog by putting the title of one of my posts. Now I am happy. I want comments. Favorable or unfavorable. I am new at this and want to learn more. I need your help.

Enough of that. I am house/animal sitting this weekend for my oldest daughter. She lives in a lovely home in Paradise. She has wireless and wide screen HDT (?) TV and lots of wonderful food. I live in an RV in "You'll Never Get Out Alive RV Park" where you cannot fart without your neighbors hearing. I have learned a lesson. Never tell people about yourself. They will use it against you.

As some of you know, I am relocating , with my cat, Emily, to the east coast. When I get there I am going to work very hard at reinventing myself. No more big mouth from me. Observe and learn. Well, I am goin to try, anyway.

Wow! it's been a week since I last met with you. How time flies when you are confused.
I purchased a car top carrier (soft, so it can be folded and put away when not needed) and attached it to the top of the car. Then I picked out the items to be packed inside and weighed each one on my bathroom scale. It is safe to carry only 100lbs in the thing. Then i took it for a test run. It is still on the car, loaded and now I need to take it off, as I am not leaving "You'll Never Get Out Alive" RV Park for another 4 weeks. But I feel better about having my clothes when I get to my destination.
I continue to be proud of myself for taking this giant leap. My kids have even changed their attitudes about the leap. I am excited and anxious and am beginning to feel a little sad about what I am leaving behind. My beautiful flowers, which give me so much pleasure, my feral tomcat, Tommy, who has never been caged and will be just fine here with my neighbor. I will miss the quiet nights just made for sleeping and the birds that wake me each morning at 5am.
I began this blog to get things off my chest. Now I feel better and want to communicate with others who might agree or disagree with me. I will attempt to find readers who want to read my dorky blog.

Frustration over technology and family

The past few days have been less than perfect. Try as I may, I can't seem to accomplish much. One of my sister's husband decided to off himself after he burned down the garage. They live in a place that is worse than the "You'll Never Get Out Alive RV Park" where I reside. It is a place in the high desert where people go when society throws them out and they can collect their welfare checks and no one cares if they clean their yard. I have not been close to that sister since I heard her husband was running illegal aliens. pissed me off! She was the baby of the family and threw a fit whenever things didn't go her way. I was the oldest girl and pretty much forgotten until I was needed to do laundry, dishes or baby sit. Waaaaaaa!

I am proud of myself for learning to use a computer just 2 years ago. I read my dummy book, ask questions and plunk away til I get it right. Now I am involved with address changing, electronic bill paying and medical transfers all on the internet. I live alone and do not have an "old man" to do things for me. I enjoy being independent.

I really didn't mean this to be a bitch fest, but when I tried to accomplish something on the computer I became frustrated. Guess I'll go dead head my wonderful collection of geraniums. I'll be sad to leave them. I will take a few cuttings and grow them in pots on the east coast.

Sleepless in San Diego

What's an ole girl to do? I am busy as a cat on a tin roof all day and can't wait to hit the hay after a nice dinner and a little tv. I mosey off to bed at 9ish and fall asleep with no problem. Then about 2ish am I wake and try as I may I can't shut off my mind. It is kinda interesting how I go back in my life remembering some of the things I've done that make me cringe. I forgive myself and move on. I try deep breathing and that doesn't work either.

I bought my car top carrier today and a converter for my computer so i can record "Gma and Emily's Great Adventure" when we finally leave the "You'll Never Get Out Alive RV Park".

I have been journaling for over 25 years. I began when my mother passed away from the big "C" and needed to express my feelings to someone or something. My mom didn't talk much except when she was "in her cups" and I wanted to leave a record of my thoughts to my daughters so when "things" popped up in their lives they would know that their mother felt the same way. My oldest daughter is a writer and will probably read them, pick out the good stuff and put it in a prize winning novel.

I am peaceful lately as the time gets closer. The daughter on the East Coast does not sound so afraid of having me close by. She is afraid she will have to care for me....someday. I understand her concern, but I am healthy, energetic and ready to begin a new life. I kinda reinvent myself every 5 years. I would like to find a comfortable old fart to hang out with on this segment of my life.

Until later, E

Taking Action!

Hey out there! The weekend in SoCal was great. As I told you I was having a yard sale at my place in the RV Park that I have been held captive for the last 5 years. None of the weekend campers came to even look at my junk, let alone buy. The "residents" flocked to see what had previoulsy been in my "home" and "art studio". Some bought and some asked when I was actually leaving. They just want to wait til I am desperate! So this morning my sister , who also lives in "You'll Never Get Outta Here Alive RV Park", came over and we carried the good stuff to her space and will be transferred to her "Almost Anything " thrift store in the high desert. Ha Ha Shoudda woudda cudda!

Now I can see the beginning of the end of my 39 years in So Cal. When I leave I will have nothing to show for those years except scars where basal cel carcinoma has been removed from my body. And, of course, all the $$ I have saved from the sale of my real home and my hovel in the hills cheap rent trailer.

I am having anxiety attacks about my trip across our wonderful country in my Ford Escape and my cat and her litter box, cat food, bed and toys. If there is any room left I will put some clothes and other necessities in for myself.

This is a change that scares me one minute and excited the next! But ....if I don't do it now, I never will. Most of my life I have believed that things will just happen without taking action. Wrong! Pony Up, decide what you want and take action.

Hope your day is as good as mine. E.

Taking the Bull by the Horns!

Okay! I woke at 3am and began thinking and when I do that I get myself in a dither. I am leaving So Cal and everything I own except my cat, Emily, and heading for the East Coast. My youngest daughter recently left me here and followed her retired military hubby to the DC area and took my two granddaughters away from me.

I agreed to watch over their wonderful home here until it sold. I did. It did. And now I am following them whether they like it or not. I have been looking for new digs on craigslist but it is very hard to "see" the perfect place. So I decided to write my own ad. At least I can tell them what I require. As I am a very creative, fun loving, healthy lady , I am sure the offers to share their home with me will just pour in.

I don't know if this is excitement or if I am scared to death. I will keep you posted. I know you will be waiting breathlessly.